Nothing much is ‘happening’ today. Despite spring-like weather this afternoon, I fail to be impressed with anything at the moment. It was warmer and sunnier, but the mud is still there, and some snow has yet to melt. It is the 6th of March, ten days until my 66th birthday. Perhaps I was hoping to be inspired, by my soon-to-change year? Maybe I anticipated that being 66 might be some kind of milestone?
Whatever I considered, it isn’t working. I just feel fed up, with everything.
I am trying to read more, and also to watch more films. But that isn’t happening.
In general, I am OK, but I cannot shake the feeling of being fed up with life at the moment.
Ollie seems to be happy enough, so it’s no fault of my dog. Maybe it’s an age thing? I don’t know.
On the bright side, I received an email from an old ambulance colleague tonight. She had found my blog by chance, and shared some memories of the old days. But that moment was transient, and did not mellow my mood.
Some days, life just pisses you off, and you have no idea why.
Today is one of those days.
Don’t concern yourselves. I am confident that this will pass.
I always feel like this on a Friday, Pete. My job often feels very unrewarding considering the lack of ethics in our modern world.
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I don’t have Friday or Monday feelings in that sense, as I worked shifts for 33 years. But I know what you mean. 🙂
Best wishes, Pete.
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Pete, you are a light to me. Shine it so I can see it all the way to New England. And Happiest Birthday in 6 days. You are wise, ripening like a fine wine.
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Very kind, Lara, and greatly appreciated.
I see you have changed your photo again. 🙂
Best wishes, Pete.
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We’re doing the time change this weekend Pete. Time messes me up!
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Our was in October going back, and I think it is March 25th for losing an hour. Such an archaic nonsense now. 🙂
Best wishes, Pete.
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I changed it again, cheaper than hair color!
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March is the hardest month to get through. One feels stuck in the mud, unable to move forward and no desire to go back. I hope today is a better day for you, birthday boy. 66 is a momentous year! I dare you to do something that deviates from your routine. Try some spontinaity to spice up your day. Even a differrent mud pile might be a treat.
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Nice to see you back, Cindy. Hope things are improving.
Next Friday is my birthday, so I will wait and see what happens!
Best wishes, Pete. x
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I am sorry to hear you are fed up, at the moment-and I so hope it is a fleeting moment. Mud, mud and more mud certainly do not help-just know this-it will pass. For now, think of all you have to love-besides your wife and Ollie-you do have those wellingtons-and a knack for writing too. I am sincere in my wishes for brighter days for you. looking forward to hearing from you soon. sincerely, Michele
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Thanks for your kind thoughts and words, Michele. I expect it is just my age, and the prospect of being another year older. No doubt I will snap out of it soon.
Best wishes, Pete.
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I get it-it is as if birthdays now, are there to keep us humble. like a collection of tally marks. Makes me think all sorts of thoughts. I look at my life and sometimes it seems the greatest part of it has been keeping the light bill paid-thankfully, those days pass and I plant more flowers. I try to love more deeply and share whatever I have found that is good. Best wishes, friend and may you remain busy-finding good things.
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Hope the last day was better for you and Ollie?
Dont be sad, Germany has a new government. LOL
And now in view of the Brexit, a lot of people have to secure their money from UK to any other EU member state. Hope the British Government has eagle eyes, because there is very much to earn. LOL
Michael
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Thanks, Michael. I suspect it is ‘birthday blues’. Another year older…
Best wishes, Pete.
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Happy birthday, Pete!
Michael
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It’s Friday week (16th), but thanks in advance! 🙂
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Many thanks for reblogging, Michael.
Best wishes, Pete.
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Always my pleasure. Thank you for posting great information. Michael
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Some days are like that, Pete. Especially when gray skies, bare trees and brown earth are a constant most days. But yes, it will pass. Best to you.
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Thanks, Jennie. Probably an age thing. Almost another year older… 🙂
Best wishes, Pete.
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Hasn’t gotten to me yet (68 in May), but it got to me when our daughter turned 40 last month. She was fine, I was a bit down. Best to you, Pete.
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I hope you’re feeling better, my good friend. If you ever want to talk I’m here.
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Cheers mate. I’m OK. Just getting old, I suppose.
Best wishes, Pete.
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Glad to hear you’re doing fine.
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Thanks for sharing your experiences with us, Pete! I am so sorry you are having a rough time. I would try to send some of my positivity your way but I just can’t right now because I feel fed up and avout to give up. I’m still going to send you lots of love and hugs!!!😍🤗
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I hope you get through all that soon, Dani. You put up a nice new photo, so I hope that’s a good sign.
I will be fine in a few days, just a ‘getting older’ thing, I expect.
Best wishes, Pete. xx
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I have a lot of those days. I think I find it hard when there is nothing concrete to look forward to… time to book a holiday.
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After I retired, I tried to stop that ‘looking forward to’ thing. At my age, it is best to deal with nothing further than tomorrow. But I do remember when the anticipation of a holiday could excite and inspire.
Best wishes, Pete.
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Having got stuck in the Niva yet again in half meter thick slush I decided to give up, we are running out of hay for the goats and wood for the fire. Where the F is spring!
Then this morning I realised that I had worked outside till gone 6 before the light faded and this morning I heard the call of at least three different bird types, the neighbour called to say he has some spare hay and the temperature has shot up to around 6c with 10c on the way this week. And just when I thought it couldn’t get any better I managed to pull the NIva out of the hole it was in and Gosia has headed out delivering soaps so I get to catch up on some Spiral whilst I babysit 🙂
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Nothing like catching up on Spiral to ease the everyday pressures of life mate!
Cheers, Pete.
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Hope you have woken up perkier and fresher this morning, Pete. Low moods are a part of life – as of course you know. But it’s taken me the best part of my 60 years to grasp this, and most importantly, to learn to accept them when they arrive, and not to waste time, effort or focus in responding to them or fighting them. In fact, I haven’t really learned that part yet. I know the theory; less easy to apply in practice. I find myself thinking of Rumi’s The Guest House at these times: https://allpoetry.com/poem/8534703-The-Guest-House-by-Mewlana-Jalaluddin-Rumi
The sun is shining here this morning. It’s not forecast to last, but it’s bringing joy whilst it’s here. Sending a little sunshine your way 🙂
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Thanks for that link, Sandra, I enjoyed the poem.
I hope that the sunshine you are sending breaks through the heavy rain here this morning too.
As much as I love being retired, and not having to work, all that free time seems to pass so rapidly, and allows me too much time for thought and reflection, I suspect.
Best wishes, Pete.
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I can relate to that, Pete. Too much time can be as bad as not enough time. A new project perhaps? A new cause or challenge? Spring is a good time to embark on something new 🙂
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Thanks, Sandra. I am giving that some thought.
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I hear and feel your pain. I’m also feeling fed-up, mostly with the house sale (that seems to be dragging at an incredibly slow pace, despite my best efforts), but also with everything. I’m house and pet-sitting for some friends, but unfortunately, the oldest dog is not well, and she’s having medication and disturbed nights, so I’m tired as well… And the weather… In my case, my birthday is some time yet so that’s not it… I hope things brighten up soon (I am reading and watching more movies, but other than a funny episode of the recent X-Files and a book about Joan Crawford and Bette Davis, not a lot of effect.)
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When I can’t even be bothered to watch my new Christmas-present DVD films, I know something is wrong, Olga. I hope that your house sale goes through soon.
Best wishes, Pete.
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It’s precisely your blog posts like these that I enjoy reading Pete! Because it’s nice to know other people get blue too. When I’m feeling low I tend to hibernate. Your way is much healthier, telling about it so friends can cheer you or commiserate or give you perspective. Thank you for posting about it Pete.
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Thanks, Sarah. I have never been shy about having a good moan on the blog. Glad to hear that it works for you.
Best wishes, Pete.
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Look at the bright side, Life is pissing you off, not pissing on you!
Warmest regards, Theo
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I always try to see the positives these days, Theo. Some days, they are more elusive. 🙂
Best wishes, Pete.
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Hang in there, my Friend.
Warmest regards, Theo
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Winter blues catching up on you Pete. I haven’t felt like going out for months now! But hopefully it will all change soon and feeling the warmth on my back from the sun whilst in the garden today assessing the damage felt very good. And I got my bus pass yesterday!!! Yay! Just a pity we don’t actually live close to a bus route….
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I’ve had my bus pass for three years, and I always smile at the irony that I have only used it for hospital out patient appointments. 🙂
Best wishes, Pete. x
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Every one of us has times like those Pete, It’s pretty normal I guess. Happy birthday in advance. We are all growing old.
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Thanks, Arlene. It might just be an age thing, I agree.
Best wishes, Pete.
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Yeah, I think we all have moments like that in our lives and cold, wet weather definitely doesn’t help. But after every storm, sun comes up. And soon proper spring will show up, be sunny and beautiful around from colourful flowers. Take care! 😊
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Thanks for your kind words. More gloomy weather today of course, but the hope for better times is good to hold on to.
Best wishes, Pete.
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I reckon it’s ‘after Christmas shitty weather’ syndrome! I’m sure once we’ve had at least a week or two of sunny weather you’ll be feeling on top of the world, Pete
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Thanks, Pam. Fingers crossed for that. Pouring with rain today…
Best wishes, Pete.
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“Maybe I anticipated that being 66 might be some kind of milestone?” Might I suggest a trip on Route 66 here in the States? You’ll pass many milestones!
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‘Motoring West’ seems to be a very attractive proposition at the moment, David.
I’m not sure I am ready to ‘Get my kicks’ just yet though.
Best wishes, Pete.
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I understand how you feel Pete. I have plenty of those days, and March has always been a “blech” month for me. I hope you’re feeling more chipper soon. I like Fraggle’s suggestion and I prescribe extra cuddles with Ollie.🤗
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Thanks, Kim. Ollie has slept through it all, since 5 pm. Longs walks in the mud obviously tire him out. 🙂
Best wishes, Pete.
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I’m sorry to see you’re feeling low, Pete. I fear I have no words to help unfortunately other than to hope things pick up soon. You’re a good man, I can tell.
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That’s a very nice thing to say, BF. The kind support of my blogging friends does help a great deal.
Best wishes, Pete.
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Some of that is age… and lately I’ve been in a general funk as well. Maybe it’s the pull of the next extinction level event asteroid with our name on it (it’s obviously coming.. just a matter of when). I needed a damn tooth pulled the other day, thus making the final one on the lower left side.. so to fill the big gap I need damn dentures. WTF. When I was 16 and got the braces yanked off I had perfect teeth.
Anyway.. damn dentist bangs and hacks away.. then says the tooth is too stubborn and tells me I need to visit the oral surgeon. So I go home and am still waiting for the damn pain to go away.. and next week I do it in the same spot all over again. No wonder people hate the dentist. Oh sure.. no pain during the procedure itself.. just for a couple-three weeks after.
My damn job is just a mindless income because I am too old to be hired for anything substantial anymore. My GF is going through menopause. After ten years I had to stop taking the Metformin to keep my glucose down.. and it worked.. because it now gives me diarrhea. So we stop the Metformin and now my glucose is outta control… and the different drugs are making me constipated, and don’t work on the glucose anyway.
I talked the Veterans Administration doctor into scheduling a stress test for me.. simply to relieve my own fears of a stroke; give me a heart attack, a gunshot to the head from a random mass shooting, just don’t turn me into a wheelchair veg where I can’t even have control of my own demise.
Then there’s just aging in general in our current society. Perhaps me having been a TV and movie nut for my entire life… I am now sensitive to when my fave actors and actresses of my generation are dying off. I am feeling the pressure of time expiring in spite of the fact I am not even out of my 60’a yet.
Yet I am still ambulatory… I can still go through the motions of running, although endurance is an issue. I still have coherent thoughts (although many might debate that).. I still have manual dexterity to still be able to type… and I can still talk.
In the end I am lucky my health is no worse than it is.. and a lot of this is just mental adjustment.
You are not alone, buddy. But like a kidney stone (which I had in Vegas a couple years ago but not anymore since moving), this feeling will also pass.
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Kidney stones in Vegas stay in Vegas!
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Nice one, David. 🙂
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HA! And that they did! 🙂
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Well thanks, Doug. That really made me feel a lot better. I am nowhere near as bad off as you! 🙂
Best wishes, Pete.
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I am so glad my suffering has made you feel better. Hmm.. I think I now know how Christ feels.
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Fighting this medical thing brings on bouts of depression and I thank the day that I started saving drafts for the dys of funk…LOL chuq
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Your problems put my day into perspective, chuq.
Best wishes, Pete.
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Glad I could help…but the age thing is a good point…..melancholy is always hanging around….LOL chuq
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If it is any consolation we all go through these low points. But I am afraid that won’t help you at all. Perhaps a visit to the nearby pub would help. A nice chat over a pint of British ale might do the trick. Then again you might not like beer. Perhaps have a pleasant walk with Ollie through the mud, he will help to lift your spirits. Best wishes from wintery Canada, Pete, for a speedy recovery!
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Thanks for your kind words, Peter. Unfortunately, i am three miles from the nearest pub, so I had to settle for a bottle of red wine at home instead. 🙂
Best wishes, Pete.
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Pete, I echo everyone else’s sentiments, particularly the Prosecco recommendation!
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I went with a bottle of Montepuciano D’Abruzzo, John. But it didn’t make anything different this time. 🙂
Best wishes, Pete.
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Hmmmm….perhaps a Barolo next time? Look, I just had my identity hacked at my bank, and it has been a real, ongoing pain…but “that’s life” as the singer sang…
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A bank hack is definitely cause for annoyance, John. I will be back to my old self in a couple of days, I’m sure.
Best wishes, Pete.
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Hang in there Pete!
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D’you know, Pete, that’s exactly how I have been all day…just hope I’m in a better mood tomorrow!
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Sorry to hear that, Sue. But also glad that I’m not alone…
Best wishes, Pete.
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It’s like that famous (very big) ring with the inscription that says “This too will piss you off and pass, and that thing you like will pass and thereby piss you off. All that lasts is piss, or taking the piss.” Famous, that–and true!
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I have never seen that ring, Donna. But I can well imagine why it was engraved so. 🙂
Best wishes, Pete.
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Actually, the real ring in the folk tale says THIS TOO SHALL PASS, but I elaborated a bit–
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I prefer your version. 🙂
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Me too==
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Oh believe me.. I have those days a lot. Sometimes there’s just no saving it. But, I hear that ‘you get your kicks at age 66’! That’s how that song goes, right?? 😉😉
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I think I need to drive to Winslow Arizona, (and not forget Winona) to make that work. 🙂 🙂
Best wishes, Pete.
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Lol!! 👍
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I was feeling out of sorts myself yesterday for no good reason. Today
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oops.. hit send too soon! my point was, today all is great again! 🙂 Tomorrow is another day !
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Hopefully, I will wake up perky and refreshed tomorrow, Susanne.
Best wishes, Pete.
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Yep even nutty Nora here has off days, I’m sure its the endless miserable weather that is a main cause. Can’t believe it’s your birthday soon, only seems a little while since your last one!
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Tell me about it. Where did that year go?
Funnily enough, the weather here was great today. No idea why I feel so glum! 😦 x
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Not great here, cold and grey, again. I’ve been ‘off-colour’ whatever that means for a couple of days now, non-specific under-the-wetherness I’m apt to call it, could do with some sunshine and a bit of warmth.
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Perhaps you could do with a SAD lamp?
https://www.sad.co.uk/en-UK/SAD-Lamps/sddsl10503.htm x
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Was thinking more along the lines of Prosecco 🤣🤣 but you might be right!
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That’s you and me both, Fraggle……
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I just necked a bottle of Montepulciano, and that didn’t change anything. 🙂
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Don’t worry, dear Pete. Such periods happen sometimes, but they are temporarily. I bet, in some days you will gonna have fate and joy of life again. 😉
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Thanks very much, Kerin. Let’s hope that tomorrow is a brighter day.
Best wishes, Pete.
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I have my share of these kinds of days too, Pete.
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Thanks, John. Sometimes, it just all doesn’t seem worth the effort. 😦
Best wishes, Pete.
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Yeah I have those days also, aal you can do is get through it with your head down. Funny thing is next day you cant remember anything about it.
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Thanks for reading and commenting.
I hope you are right. Tomorrow is another day.
Best wishes, Pete.
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